Catharsis
I finally gave myself permission to go on a run longer than 5 minutes and prioritise my mental health over my to-do list (good job, May!).
It made me realise two things:
I actually do enjoy running longer than 5 minutes because my body has a chance to settle into the rhythm and movement.
I think I subconsciously choose not to run for longer than 5 minutes because with that settling in comes a clearing of the mind, which means all the emotions and feelings that I suppress in order to try to check off my ever-growing to-do list finally come to the surface, making the run a cathartic release. That + the beauty of my environment, the continued awe of “I can’t believe I live here” combined with the growing fear of “what if I can’t stay here”, = the perfect trigger for tears
